一場人體實驗|Human subject research
我從來沒有想過,這件事會發生在我身上。
當懷孕的無助及憂鬱症同時期侵襲了我。在無法服用適合的藥量下,我走了這段痛苦的孕期。這段迷幻而慘忍的過程,我將之稱為屬於我個人的一場人體實驗。這幾個畫面重複的在腦海中流動,極度不安。想說的很簡單「我懂了也感同身受了。」每張畫面就是我每個階段的痛苦凝結,痛到瀕臨死亡卻沒留一滴血。
我希望自身的精力可以讓痛苦中的人明白,「有個人懂你,有個人活下來了。」
It never occurred to me that this will happen to me.
The helplessness of pregnancy and depression stroke me at the same time. Unable to take the proper dose, I underwent the painful pregnancy. I call the illusory and terrile process my personal human experiment. These images flow repetitively in my mind full of misgivings. What I want to say is simple: “I get it and feel it.” Every picture is my condensed pain at every stage. There is not a drop of blood despite the near-death pain.
I hope my personal experience will help those in pain understand: “Someone gets you. Someone has survived.”
■ 拍攝年份 Year:2020
■ 拍攝地點 Location:
(1)-(3)自宅 Home、(4)-(5)工作室 Studio




